Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Who I Am
I'm a fan of David Choi's music and I happened to stumble upon his new music video. He's quite a talented person and this was the song title: Who I Am. It's a very nice and meaningful song. Here are the lyrics:
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad
I wanna break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am
Nothing makes sense nothing makes sense anymore
Nothing is right nothing is right when you're gone
Loosing my breath loosing my right to be wrong
I'm frightened to death
I'm frightened that I won't be strong
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad
Im looking past all the madness
But that's all I have
But I want someone to love me
For who I am
I'm shaking it off I'm shaking off all of the pain
You're breaking my heart you're breaking my heart once again
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad
I'm looking past all the madness
But that's all I have
But I want someone to love me
For who I am
Wonderful song isn't it? =)
Today has been rather a slow and rainy day for me. I have got work tonight at Tanjong Pagar from 8 pm to 12 am. I'm really excited as tonight will be a new location for me. Hehe.. One more hour to go can I can get ready to prepare for work. I've been pretty early for work these days. Probably because I want to kick that bad habit of mine. But I'm still late for school. I have to make significant improvement man..
I told mum I'll be late back home again and she started probing and started her long and irritating speech. She still doesn't trust me of what I am doing and who I am mixing with. When I'm off to work, I would say I'm out with friends. But actually, I am just working. And of course, I know how to protect myself. I definitely won't let anyone take advantage of me.
During lunch today (mum took off and cooked macoroni), mum told me about Jun (my sister, Melanie, family calls her Jun). Mum said sis wants to go to Australia to study for degree. Of course we support her! But mum used the wrong approach. Again. And sis was pissed off. Mum always start with: "Why want to resign? Then school fee how? Why this, why that?? Money this, money that." We know everything needs money but sometimes, they should ask properly, sit down and discuss our plans. Not everytime start doubting us and putting us down.
Then sis said: "You all don't understand me. Only Gloria understands me." All these are what mum told to me and Jo (my brother, Joel). When we heard, we were like.. "Eh? If you don't tell us your problems, how can we help..?" One thing about my sis, she confides in friends but not in her family. She is the exact opposite of Jo and I. Not that Jo and I will tell everything to our parents but at least we got each other. Jun still doesn't understand that as we get older, although we might have our own family in future, siblings are still very important. We may like to compare and argue, but still, blood is thicker than water. Jun is getting better (as in bonding is closer now and starting to learn to share) until Gloria came back from Australia.
All along, I don't really really have a good impression about my sis's best friend. Maybe I have some misunderstandings about the influence she is giving to my sister. But if bro feels the same way too.. Then, there is a problem. I had told sis about getting too close to Gloria before but she says I have no right to comment about her best friend. Well sister, I care for you. I know your friends are very very important to you but as bystanders, we see more clearly and knows what is best for you. Enough said. The rest is up to her to decide. Jun said she got me a GUESS watch for christmas present. I don't know what to give her man.. Bags she have so many, watches also. Tops also have alot. Make up she doesn't use. Maybe get her a nice necklace or bracelet.. I am going so broke man.. Got to choing work and studies! I got to go and prepare for work soon. *smiles*
-Chelle-
Thinking of you till 4:59 PM
